Once upon a time, I was so in tune with my body that I could continue to function while I had injuries that required stitches. One example of this was something that happened when I was about 10 years old, when I was asked to deliver something from my aunt and uncle’s home to my grandpa’s home, a distance of a few hundred yards at most. During the travel, I accidentally encountered the edge of a rusty shovel, and needed a dozen stitches to repair the injury, despite the fact that until my relatives pointed it out I had not been aware of the damage. I still have a scar on my left calf to remind me of the incident.
That is no longer true.
I just realized that I missed posting my usual “Saturday Posts” blog for this past week. I’ve been dropping a lot of “balls” lately, and that is only the most recent one. I’ve been having trouble keeping track of what day of the month it is, or even what day of the week it is. The closest thing I have to a schedule is by following a regimen of starting a laundry cycle each week based on when my wife’s last workday of the week is. That is the day I start my cycle by doing the white’s of our laundry, usually followed by her work slacks the next day, then the light weight colored clothes the next day, and concluding with the heavy colored clothes the next night (if there are enough of them to need it – in the Summer that isn’t always needed).
I don’t know what I’m doing anymore. It’s likely more due to what I’m doing for pain management than whatever else is going on, but it is still a concern to me. Admittedly, some of the pain I’m trying to cope with is emotional – I am still reeling from the pain of my dad’s betrayal when I asked for his support to end the religious feud between me and the rest of my family. It doesn’t help that my dad’s birthday is only a few days away.
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Vernon, do you like to read? Have you heard of a book called The Voice of Knowledge? Can you ask Barbara to bring it home for you to read??? It will explain a lot of what is happening in your head… God bless you and Barbara…. You are carrying heavy burdens…
Thank you, Anita. I will ask Vernon about this tonight.
I ordered the book tonight. We should get it between Monday and Wednesday next week. Thank you for letting us know about this.
Anita – not only have I always liked to read, I once got 2nd place in a summer reading contest by reading about 300 books in a single summer. Little did I know that I was competing with a trained speed-readier. LOL!
Anyway, my wife ordered the book, and we both intend to read it after it arrives. Thank you so very much for the suggestion. You have once again proved why I consider you a spiritual “big sister”.
You have my gratitude, and love, always.