Well, I’m done looking for ways to apply The Secret, or acquire affluence in general.
Ok, I haven’t exactly made a secret of the fact that I was uncertain about what I am passionate about – that thing the Success Guru’s call “My Calling” or “My Mission.”
After getting Natalie Ledwell’s book last week, one of the bonuses she shared was a series of interviews (usually around 15 minutes long) with acknowledged masters of the Law Of Attraction (LOA). I’ve shared in earlier posts my reaction to interviews with Bob Proctor, and Marci Shimoff. The most recent one I watched was Joe Vitale.
In this one, Natalie pointedly asked Joe what advice he’d give to anyone who didn’t know what their passion was – which immediately made me sit up a bit straighter. Here was a question I REALLY wanted the answer to! He said (and this might not be exact, but it is as close as my memory will make it) “Look at what you’re afraid to do. Your life’s purpose will be hiding right behind that which you’re most afraid of doing.”
Geee – thanks Joe. It only took me about a nano-micro-second to know EXACTLY what he was pointing at in my life. I’ve had dozens of different people, from all over the social and political spectrum, tell me that I should do it, and it actually was something I entertained the idea of pursuing when I was a kid.
Surely there has to be another way! That’s one bridge that burned beyond repair many years ago. I lit the fire, too.
In this lifetime, I am NOT going to be the President of the United States of America. That’s one reason why I made the joke on one of my earlier blogs about not running for president myself, but if someone who knew how to organize and finance a campaign wanted to start one and draft me, I’d do it. It was a safe statement, because I knew in advance that it would never happen.
I am not going to live in a fish bowl and have my every behavior scrutinized and criticized by people who can’t actually DO anything, but make a living off of making others worry. I’m not going to try to obtain a job that can’t do anything of lasting value without the cooperation of 541 elected foot-draggers and progress blockers who only care about their own profit, or their own path to power.
Besides which – someone out there kills idealists who manage to get elected and try to buck the system, or change it.
When I got this newest LOA book (newest in my collection, at least), I started very quickly with looking at how I could use my daily affirmations more effectively. One of the ideas I hit on was to make my own mind movies – just as Natalie did in her book. Problem was, I didn’t actually have any software for doing that.
So, I went online and found a freeware program called Ice Cream Slideshow Maker (I kid you not!) that looked to be capable of doing what I needed. It was easy and quick to learn, too. Oh, did you hear the “BUT” coming? Sorry.
But, when I copied the folder of images I have to the slideshow I encountered a limitation I hadn’t anticipated. My folder had 168 images in it – things that invoked feelings of health, strength, abundance, spiritual enlightenment, joy, peace – well, you get the idea. The freeware version of Ice Cream Slideshow Maker (ICSM) would only let me use 20 images in my slideshows.
Well, I made one slideshow that complied with their limits, and I liked the results, but it wasn’t REALLY what I wanted. I wanted to be able to use all 168 images – plus anything new that I might add to the folder in the future. Hmmmm….
Yesterday, part of the solution dropped into my lap, quite literally. Several years ago, I heard about a spiritual practice out of Hawaii that you might simplistically call “Responsibility Meditation”. I won’t even try to put the real name here – because I couldn’t pronounce it and I think the name just gets in the way of applying it. I think you have to have 3 tongues to get all the inflections in right (that’s a joke). I tried back then to learn more about this practice, but using the internet I could only learn the name of one practitioner, and no contact information on him. So, I shelved the idea.
What happened yesterday was that I was watching an interview with Marci Shimoff where she mentioned using this technique – and told the exact steps and phrases that she uses! It’s so simple it floored me! Now, I just needed to find a way to apply it to my meditation.
Today when I opened up my image folder, I noticed among the folder control tabs was one labeled “Slideshow”. So, I opened it up, and looked. The slideshow function gave me the ability to use the ENTIRE CONTENTS of the folder, and adjust the playback within 3 different speeds, and even randomize the playback. OKAY! Now I have everything I needed.
Oh, and FYI – those simple directions for the “Responsibility Meditation” practice are here:
Spend just 5 minutes a day, every day, meditating on whatever you want to fix. During your meditation, visualize the situation, as completely and vividly as you can, then repeat the following phrases to that visualisation, over and over:
Please Forgive Me.
I LOVE YOU.
Today is April 5th, 2017. I wouldn’t (quite) call this a major breakthrough in my understanding of myself, but mostly that is because I don’t see how this can lead to anything. But, I do have an idea.
I had a dream while I was sleeping last night in which I wrote something bemoaning the state of politics in the US. In the dream, I specifically used this statement: “There are no liberals or conservatives in US government. There are only those who are greedy or despots, and there are plenty of both in both parties.”
That needs some explanation, especially in this era of hyper-partisan politics. What I mean is that there are those who went to Washington for the ability to enrich themselves financially, or there are those who think their idea of an ideal government is so great that it is okay to use the power of government (force) to compel those who disagree to submit. As of this writing, I don’t see anyone in Washington who doesn’t fit into one or the other group. There hasn’t been anyone in Washington, to the best of my knowledge, who didn’t belong in one of those groups FOR OVER 30 YEARS.
I’m not just talking about elected officials, either. Every non-elected bureaucrat who works in Washington is in one group or the other. Every Presidential appointee is in one group or the other.
The longevity of this partisanship in Washington is infecting every facet of society. Christians think it’s okay to use the 1st Amendment to compel atheists to attend SOME form of church. The GLBT crowd think it’s alright to use the force of law to compel some form of “equal treatment” from those who do not want to associate with them. Liberals think they are being “tolerant” when they write laws that compel submission from conservatives. Conservatives think they are looking out for themselves and their families when they empower businesses and churches to exercise greater influence and control.
EVERYONE IN THE UNITED STATES needs to learn the meaning of TOLERANCE. We can not build a more tolerant society by empowering an ever-growing, ever more powerful, government.
Oh, and just in case someone cares – I’m picking on the United States because it is my home, not because it is alone in experiencing this problem. The whole world needs to wake up and realize the perils of hyper-partisanship. And ALL Muslim mosques need to start speaking out AGAINST the use of force to compel change for non-Muslims.
One of the things I’m learning about applying the Law of Attraction (LOA) is that there must be an action towards the goal. You have to do something.
Well, I may not (yet) have an idea what my dream, or purpose, is, but that can’t be allowed to be a barrier to my eventually getting there. I still have to take action, if for no other reason than to show “the universe” (also known as God, the higher power, or my best self) that I’m serious about making these changes.
So, I hit on a plan of a sort. I’m going to look into doing the same thing with a video game that Natalie Ledwell did with her book. I’m going to try to write a video game that is entertaining and captivating, but at the same time teaches the player the fundamentals of using the LOA. Or, if I can get a team of people together who share my vision, perhaps my vision will be enough to guide the process, and their skill will produce the better product. I’m not sure about the details, and at this point I don’t need to be. I just have to have an idea, and start moving in that direction.
Not quite a week ago I got an email offering me a chance to take a “30 second quiz” to learn what my biggest success blocker was. Since I have all sorts of time available to kill, I took the quiz just to see what they said.
When I got the results, I wasn’t particularly impressed. It looked (to me) like something that could have been written for 20,000 other people all at the same time. But, something strange happened. The author of the quiz is also a published self-help writer, and sells her premier book for $19 USD. Because I had taken her quiz, she was offering me an e-book version of the book FOR FREE if I’d give her an email address to send it to. I did.
I read the book front-to-back in one day, and got really excited. It talks about HOW TO USE THE LAW OF ATTRACTION – and walks you through exactly how to perform the mechanical steps to make things happen. I have used daily affirmations before, and after reading the book I pulled out the list and jumped into re-writing the statements. Very excitedly, I even told several friends about this “missing link”. I’ve read the book again once every day since.
Something happened today that was a total “bolt from the blue” moment of revelation for me. I’d just sat down to my computer to read, was still in chapter one of the book, when I learned for myself what is probably the biggest reason why the Law of Attraction has never worked for me – and perhaps never will.
I have no dream. There is nothing that I can do that I am passionate about. Oh, there are LOTS of things that I can do – my job history attests to that in spades – but I’m not passionate about any of them. Never have been. Looking back into my earliest childhood memories, I can’t remember being passionate about any activity. There have been several things I’ve done over the years that I’ve been good at – Army Medic, music, math, spiritually assisting others with trauma recovery – but I can’t remember ever having a dream that I’d gladly sacrifice everything else to achieve.
No focus, no goal, no gain. The law of “Be – Do – Have” comes to mind. It basically says that in order to have the life you want, you must first figure out what you must do to get that life. Knowing what you have to do, you now need to figure out what you have to be to achieve that ability to do. Beingness first, Doingness second, Havingness results.
Learning this about myself makes me feel like a failure on a monumental scale, but I know one thing the feeling doesn’t. It opens the door to me looking inside myself, and getting to know myself more intimately than ever before, so that I CAN find that passion. This isn’t the end of my journey, just a fork in the road.