Just spit it out . . .

I’ve had an idea for a post rattling around in my head for weeks now, but I never thought I had it together enough to write a blog with it.  Part of the problem is that I haven’t slept well in ages, it seems.  I go to bed, and a half hour later my body hurts so bad that I get back up.  Or – I have a migraine and don’t sleep anyhow.  When I do sleep, I get perhaps 3 hours before I roll over on my hip or shoulder, and wake myself up.

Anyhow, I decided to just toss this out there, and see what everyone thinks.  Please forgive that it isn’t very polished.

It’s about Illusions.  I was a youngster when I first read Richard Bach’s “Johnathan Livingston Seagull” – and that was probably my first brush with Illusions as a concept of reality in this world.  A follow-up book by the same author was “Illusions: the Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah”.    I’ve never tried to hide the fact that I think this world is not real – but recently I started to ponder the deeper question:  If it isn’t real, why do so many believe that it is?

As I pondered that question – I began to realize that my video games held a clue, even if accidentally.  THEY are created illusions, and people actually pay money to dive into them for entertainment.  As I looked at this, I realized that each illusion world was supported by MANY other, lesser, illusions built into the world, that define what the world is and how it works.  When people accept the rules of that world, playing the game becomes “real” to them for as long as they are plugged into it.

Which leads to a supplemental question about OUR world – what illusions exist to define it, that are accepted by so many people as to make it “real” to them?

Over the last couple of weeks, I have attempted to formulate a list of such illusions.  I don’t really know the best way to present this, so I’m going to just make it a list.

Dignity, Morality, Nobility, Organized Religion, family, society, nations, governments, power, success, wealth, health, pain, illness, possessions,  duty, honor, sacrifice, obligation.

There is a proof to the fact that these things are illusions – just challenge someone else with the idea that one of them isn’t real and watch their reaction.  If they bought into it, they will become livid over the suggestion that they are wrong – but they can’t PROVE they are right.  They can only prove they are willing to use force to make you withdraw the accusation.

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Saturday Posts . . . and update

Update:  We managed to figure out a way to keep our internet connection at home, but at a drastic loss of connection speed.  No more online gaming, streaming video or Skype phone calls for a while.

But, as I said – we do know that Cox is getting competition in this area finally.  Even better, the competition is Craw-Kan – a customer-owned Co-Op that my dad has been part of for over 20 years.  He gets his electric, cable TV, broadband internet,  AND his house and cell telephone through them, and because he’s an owner, he gets a DIVIDEND CHECK back from them every year.  Oh, yes – we’ve already contacted them and asked to be informed the minute they are able to connect to our address.

Simple economics . . .

Well, it looks like my run as an internet blogger is coming to an end, due to simple economics.

When we first moved to this area, we had a fairly reasonable rate for internet service, and we were happy enough with the provider that when I cancelled my cell phone we called them up and got internet phone for the house, using the same number.  The main problem is that they have been the only broadband internet provider we could use in this area.

Over time our internet cost has escalated to where it is no longer affordable.  It is now nearly 50% higher than it was when we started with them, and the quality of service has declined noticeably.  The last 3 months in a row, the bill has gone up every month.  There is another provider that has started moving into the area, but they can’t provide service to our address yet.

So, I’m going to call Cox in a few hours, to see if we can get a slower package, or find some way to reduce our bill.  If we can’t, it will be time to pull the plug on our internet, and that might take our phone with it.

Saturday Posts . . .

I know – the Saturday Posts series are usually just a graphic with a one or two sentence idea that triggers thought or humor about some topic.

Today I’m going in a different direction.  Something has been on my mind that I need to share with you, and you all need the warning.  Yes, I said “warning”.  It is that big of a deal.

There is something about to happen.  All the major governments of the world know it will soon happen, but none of them are talking about it because, quite frankly, they have no idea what to do and fear triggering a panic they can’t spin or control.  The mass media also knows this event is about to happen, but they are keeping quiet for another reason – talking about it won’t sell advertising OR papers, so for them there is no upside to the story.

What is the story?  The world – yes, the whole WORLD – has already begun the decline to a life without OIL.  I could tell you a lot, but I’m nowhere near as good at telling this as the people who produced and directed a documentary my wife and I watched recently.  It is called “The End of Suburbia” – and we got our copy from the Netflix disc service.  Please, find this documentary and watch it.  We need to be informed to make the changes necessary to the post-oil world we will be living in within a few decades.

My apologies . . .

My wife has pointed out that not only did I miss making a post last Saturday, but that it has been a while since I’ve posted anything other than Saturday posts.  Here is why.

I’m still holding on – waiting for the chance to place the order for the last device I’m willing to try to change the conditions living in this body is forcing me to cope with.  My wife said that we should be able to order it by the end of June – and that means before the end of this month now that the calendar says it is June.  I’ve been bouncing from one storm to the next, and one migraine headache to the next.  Sometimes they overlap, sometimes the migraine fills the gaps between the storms, but it is indeed rare that I don’t have to put up with how my body deals with either.  Sadly – I vaguely remember writing a similar statement during the spring a year ago.  Or was it 2 years ago.  Oh well – the heavy storm cycle won’t last forever, and I’m still hopeful that the migraines can be altered as well.

My sleep, when I get it, doesn’t leave me feeling rested or rejuvenated.  I walk about with a mental fog so thick that even things I know need doing get forgotten.  I have a “brilliant idea” for a blog – and by the time I get to my computer I either forget the idea or how I was going to make the point.  It happens to other things as well – I once boiled a pot of coffee almost dry by forgetting to reduce the burner temperature after it started perking.

Anyhow, before I get up from the computer, I’ll be selecting the post for tomorrow, and getting it scheduled to post.

More on Imitrex . . .

Friday’s post made a pretty radical statement about Imitrex, so I thought I should put it in context by posting the entire relevant section of the e-newsletter Dr. Sears sent out last week (my wife read her copy on Thursday, I think).  So, here it is:

“I treat a lot of different kinds of chronic pain at my clinic. The patients most desperate for relief are the migraine sufferers.

If you get migraines, you know they can knock you out for days at a time.

The World Health Organization says migraines are to blame for more lost years of healthy life than multiple sclerosis, epilepsy, ovarian cancer and tuberculosis combined.1

But mainstream medicine knows very little about the cause of migraines or how to treat them. Most doctors prescribe Imitrex. That’s a drug to help relieve headaches, pain, nausea, and sensitivity to light and sound.

But Imitrex can actually cause headaches. They’re called rebound headaches.

And it has other terrible side effects like slurred speech… diarrhea… hallucinations… twitching muscles… vision changes…

And over-the-counter remedies are no better. Aspirin, naproxen, and ibuprofen can make the pain worse. They can cause an “analgesic rebound effect.” This means your headache can come back when you stop taking them.

And we’re learning more every day about just how dangerous these drugs really are…

In fact, a study published earlier this month in the journal BMJ found that your risk of having a heart attack increased as much as 50% after taking ibuprofen

Regardless of dose or length of time you take it…

Sometimes, nutrient deficiencies — like a magnesium deficiency — can be behind migraines. But for some patients, making sure they get enough of the right nutrients isn’t enough to stop the pain. Still, that doesn’t mean I resort to Big Pharma’s meds…”

So, there you have it.  It is a vicious cycle for me – because it all started with pain management following the treatment of a bone tumor.  The pain meds continued over a period of  around 15 years almost daily, before I even got an inkling of an idea that this might not be smart.  Shortly after that, I had my first migraine – which I later learned was likely CAUSED by the long-term use of the pain meds.  So, I start using Excedrine for the migraines, and my joints started to decline more rapidly – so I try to medicate them (by this point I was using non-prescription liquid pain relief as much as possible) and the migraines got worse.  Eventually I got word that Imitrex would help, so I asked the VA for that and got it.

In the last 6 years I started using reading glasses – and about a month ago I asked my wife to get a new pair with stronger correction.  And here is something I didn’t even think to connect to the whole cycle – I get random muscle twitches pretty much everywhere, but especially in my eye lids and legs.

So, to answer a question asked about Friday’s posts – no, this is not sustainable.  Not really.  But, I still have little choice but to bear with it until we get the cefaly device to see how well it helps me. If we get it ordered by the end of June, I’m thinking I should know how well it does or doesn’t do the job by mid September.

I’m hopeful, but I am also realistic enough to admit that it may fail to help – if it does, I’m not chasing any more rainbows.  I’ve seen people bankrupt their families trying to buy a few more days.  I will not do that.  However long I have remaining – and let’s be realistic, no matter how bad my quality of life gets, it could still last another 40 years – I will accept and use to be the best partner for my wife that I can be with what I have to work with.