5 Minutes of Magic . . .

When I got this newest LOA book (newest in my collection, at least), I started very quickly with looking at how I could use my daily affirmations more effectively.  One of the ideas I hit on was to make my own mind movies – just as Natalie did in her book.  Problem was, I didn’t actually have any software for doing that.

So, I went online and found a freeware program called Ice Cream Slideshow Maker (I kid you not!) that looked to be capable of doing what I needed.  It was easy and quick to learn, too.  Oh, did you hear the “BUT” coming?  Sorry.

But, when I copied the folder of images I have to the slideshow I encountered a limitation I hadn’t anticipated.  My folder had 168 images in it – things that invoked feelings of health, strength, abundance, spiritual enlightenment, joy, peace – well, you get the idea.  The freeware version of Ice Cream Slideshow Maker (ICSM) would only let me use 20 images in my slideshows.

Well, I made one slideshow that complied with their limits, and I liked the results, but it wasn’t REALLY what I wanted.  I wanted to be able to use all 168 images – plus anything new that I might add to the folder in the future.  Hmmmm….

Yesterday, part of the solution dropped into my lap, quite literally.  Several years ago, I heard about a spiritual practice out of Hawaii that you might simplistically call “Responsibility Meditation”.  I won’t even try to put the real name here – because I couldn’t pronounce it and I think the name just gets in the way of applying it.  I think you have to have 3 tongues to get all the inflections in right (that’s a joke).  I tried back then to learn more about this practice, but using the internet I could only learn the name of one practitioner, and no contact information on him.  So, I shelved the idea.

What happened yesterday was that I was watching an interview with Marci Shimoff where she mentioned using this technique – and told the exact steps and phrases that she uses!  It’s so simple it floored me!  Now, I just needed to find a way to apply it to my meditation.

Today when I opened up my image folder, I noticed among the folder control tabs was one labeled “Slideshow”.  So, I opened it up, and looked.  The slideshow function gave me the ability to use the ENTIRE CONTENTS of the folder, and adjust the playback within 3 different speeds, and even randomize the playback.  OKAY!  Now I have everything I needed.

Oh, and FYI – those simple directions for the “Responsibility Meditation” practice are here:

Spend just 5 minutes a day, every day, meditating on whatever you want to fix.  During your meditation, visualize the situation, as completely and vividly as you can, then repeat the following phrases to that visualisation, over and over:

I’m Sorry.

Please Forgive Me.

Thank You.

I LOVE YOU.

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Understanding hits like . . .

Not quite a week ago I got an email offering me a chance to take a “30 second quiz” to learn what my biggest success blocker was.  Since I have all sorts of time available to kill, I took the quiz just to see what they said.

When I got the results, I wasn’t particularly impressed.  It looked (to me) like something that could have been written for 20,000 other people all at the same time.  But, something strange happened.  The author of the quiz is also a published self-help writer, and sells her premier book for $19 USD.  Because I had taken her quiz, she was offering me an e-book version of the book FOR FREE if I’d give her an email address to send it to.  I did.

I read the book front-to-back in one day, and got really excited.  It talks about HOW TO USE THE LAW OF ATTRACTION – and walks you through exactly how to perform the mechanical steps to make things happen.  I have used daily affirmations before, and after reading the book I pulled out the list and jumped into re-writing the statements.  Very excitedly, I even told several friends about this “missing link”.  I’ve read the book again once every day since.

Except today.

Something happened today that was a total “bolt from the blue” moment of revelation for me.  I’d just sat down to my computer to read, was still in chapter one of the book, when I learned for myself what is probably the biggest reason why the Law of Attraction has never worked for me – and perhaps never will.

I have no dream.  There is nothing that I can do that I am passionate about.  Oh, there are LOTS of things that I can do – my job history attests to that in spades – but I’m not passionate about any of them.  Never have been.  Looking back into my earliest childhood memories, I can’t remember being passionate about any activity.  There have been several things I’ve done over the years that I’ve been good at – Army Medic, music, math, spiritually assisting others with trauma recovery – but I can’t remember ever having a dream that I’d gladly sacrifice everything else to achieve.

No focus, no goal, no gain.  The law of “Be – Do – Have” comes to mind.  It basically says that in order to have the life you want, you must first figure out what you must do to get that life.  Knowing what you have to do, you now need to figure out what you have to be to achieve that ability to do.  Beingness first, Doingness second, Havingness results.

Learning this about myself makes me feel like a failure on a monumental scale, but I know one thing the feeling doesn’t.  It opens the door to me looking inside myself, and getting to know myself more intimately than ever before, so that I CAN find that passion.  This isn’t the end of my journey, just a fork in the road.