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My wife has pointed out that not only did I miss making a post last Saturday, but that it has been a while since I’ve posted anything other than Saturday posts. Here is why.
I’m still holding on – waiting for the chance to place the order for the last device I’m willing to try to change the conditions living in this body is forcing me to cope with. My wife said that we should be able to order it by the end of June – and that means before the end of this month now that the calendar says it is June. I’ve been bouncing from one storm to the next, and one migraine headache to the next. Sometimes they overlap, sometimes the migraine fills the gaps between the storms, but it is indeed rare that I don’t have to put up with how my body deals with either. Sadly – I vaguely remember writing a similar statement during the spring a year ago. Or was it 2 years ago. Oh well – the heavy storm cycle won’t last forever, and I’m still hopeful that the migraines can be altered as well.
My sleep, when I get it, doesn’t leave me feeling rested or rejuvenated. I walk about with a mental fog so thick that even things I know need doing get forgotten. I have a “brilliant idea” for a blog – and by the time I get to my computer I either forget the idea or how I was going to make the point. It happens to other things as well – I once boiled a pot of coffee almost dry by forgetting to reduce the burner temperature after it started perking.
Anyhow, before I get up from the computer, I’ll be selecting the post for tomorrow, and getting it scheduled to post.
Sorry, I didn’t get one posted in advance. We had strong storms nearly all of the last week, and when the storms finally quit, yesterday, I tried to get some sleep. Woke up with another migraine, and still have not received the refill of Imitrex from the VA Hospital.
So, I’m sitting in a dark room, with sunglasses on, nursing a gingerale for an upset stomach.
When I got this newest LOA book (newest in my collection, at least), I started very quickly with looking at how I could use my daily affirmations more effectively. One of the ideas I hit on was to make my own mind movies – just as Natalie did in her book. Problem was, I didn’t actually have any software for doing that.
So, I went online and found a freeware program called Ice Cream Slideshow Maker (I kid you not!) that looked to be capable of doing what I needed. It was easy and quick to learn, too. Oh, did you hear the “BUT” coming? Sorry.
But, when I copied the folder of images I have to the slideshow I encountered a limitation I hadn’t anticipated. My folder had 168 images in it – things that invoked feelings of health, strength, abundance, spiritual enlightenment, joy, peace – well, you get the idea. The freeware version of Ice Cream Slideshow Maker (ICSM) would only let me use 20 images in my slideshows.
Well, I made one slideshow that complied with their limits, and I liked the results, but it wasn’t REALLY what I wanted. I wanted to be able to use all 168 images – plus anything new that I might add to the folder in the future. Hmmmm….
Yesterday, part of the solution dropped into my lap, quite literally. Several years ago, I heard about a spiritual practice out of Hawaii that you might simplistically call “Responsibility Meditation”. I won’t even try to put the real name here – because I couldn’t pronounce it and I think the name just gets in the way of applying it. I think you have to have 3 tongues to get all the inflections in right (that’s a joke). I tried back then to learn more about this practice, but using the internet I could only learn the name of one practitioner, and no contact information on him. So, I shelved the idea.
What happened yesterday was that I was watching an interview with Marci Shimoff where she mentioned using this technique – and told the exact steps and phrases that she uses! It’s so simple it floored me! Now, I just needed to find a way to apply it to my meditation.
Today when I opened up my image folder, I noticed among the folder control tabs was one labeled “Slideshow”. So, I opened it up, and looked. The slideshow function gave me the ability to use the ENTIRE CONTENTS of the folder, and adjust the playback within 3 different speeds, and even randomize the playback. OKAY! Now I have everything I needed.
Oh, and FYI – those simple directions for the “Responsibility Meditation” practice are here:
Spend just 5 minutes a day, every day, meditating on whatever you want to fix. During your meditation, visualize the situation, as completely and vividly as you can, then repeat the following phrases to that visualisation, over and over:
Please Forgive Me.
I LOVE YOU.
One of the services that I use to monitor the “world” of the internet is Stumble – I click on the Stumble icon in my browser, and it randomly jumps to a new website based on general categories I’ve indicated an interest in. I also periodically get a newsletter where they highlight some sites I might like based on reviews I have written on their previous recommendations.
One recent newsletter caught my attention with an article about SLEEP. Probably because the last couple of years I’ve had a real problem with getting enough. I am certain that I haven’t slept 7 consecutive hours in over 3 years, and there are whole months that go by (especially in spring) when migraines and arthritis pain tag-team to force 2 or 3 tries at sleeping to reach an accumulated total of 6-7 hours.
Anyway, this article was worth a careful reading to me, and I thought some of you might like it as well.
I was just talking on the phone with my daughter, who called to wish me a happy birthday. Yep, it’s today.
But, it got me to thinking. I remember an incident back when I was 10, when one of my aunts asked me what age I thought was when a person was “old”. My answer at the time was 18.
Well, it turns out I have now officially lived 3x that long. 18 x 3 = 54. So if 18 was old, I’m ancient now. But, an interesting side note is – I was 18 when I had my left leg operated on for a bone tumor. Coincidence? Hmmmm…….
Image is a side view of a bunch of carrots still growing in the ground. The text is a quote from organic farmer Mary Jane Butters, which says, “I think we need to take back our language. I want to call my organic carrots ‘carrots’ and let (other farmers) call theirs a chemical carrot. And they can list all of the ingredients that they used instead of me having to be certified. The burden is on us to prove something. Let them prove that they used only 30 chemicals instead of 50 to produce an apple.”
I have a confession to make. The reason I haven’t been posting much the last few months is that I am having a rough time with this arthritis in my left hip.
Remember a while back when I posted the story about how the bone tumor in my left leg was found? It was caught VERY early because I am so tuned in to how my body feels that the onset of the tumor was enough to trigger severe pain and keep me from walking on the leg.
So, imagine being that sensitive, and living with actual problems that have shown up on x-ray and MRI tests for a couple of years. Ok, those problems wouldn’t normally bother even me so much, but for the last 3 months we’ve had rain or storms in this area every day – except 4. I’ve counted. Sometimes they are east of us, as far away as Springfield, Missouri. Sometimes they are south of us as far as Tulsa, Oklahoma. Well, you get the idea. Keep drawing a circle – Broken Arrow, OK, Chanute, KS, Ft. Scott, KS, Nevada, MO. Any storm that has yellow and red coloring on the Weather.com radar image and is as close as any of those places will cause me enough discomfort that I can’t sleep.
Here is what the VA said about my hip when I (finally!) got the results of an MRI that was done at the beginning of this month:
1. Mild degenerative changes in the left hip joint. 2. Minimal inflammation involving the proximal vastus lateralis and gluteus maximus muscles adjacent to the greater trochanter. 3. Mild cellulitis in the subcutaneous fat overlying the lateral hip. 4. Subcortical lesion in the posterior left femoral head is stable in size back to May 2012 CT with signal characteristics suggestive of a small enchondroma. Consider followup MRI in one year to insure stability.
See – according to them, even though there are 4 problems going on in the same hip, they are all mild and merit only being monitored. But, as I said before – my sensitivity is such that these are interfering with my sleep.
And that is my real problem. I’m down to only sleeping about 1.5 to 3 hours at a time. Add to that this – I absolutely can’t sleep at night because the heat has been so bad during the day that I am forced to do laundry at night, and only 1 or 2 loads per night. As I’m writing this, it is just past 0500 (5:00 am) here – and the temperature is 79F degrees with a heat index of 83F. The sun hasn’t even started to come up yet.
I don’t know how much longer I’m going to be thinking clearly enough to do these blogs, so this is a head’s up. I’m going to pre-schedule as many Saturday Posts as my WordPress account will let me, and then hope for the best. But, to keep from sounding like a broken record, I won’t keep updating you all the time about how bad the weather is or how my arthritis feels.
When my wife goes out grocery shopping on the weekends, she frequently includes a visit to one (or several) thrift stores. Especially one called “The Doggie Bag” which supports the local Humane Society with the profits they make.
On a recent visit she picked up a pair of black denim shorts for me. When she got home with them, I tried them on. They were VERY tight, but she assured me that the tag the store had put on them said the waist was 36″. The good news was that I did manage to get them on, fastened, and zipped. The bad news was that I stood there debating for several minutes about whether or not I would want to wear them for a whole day.
When she noticed that the shorts had pleats in the front, that was the death blow. I don’t like pleats, because they exaggerate my already large middle area. So, I took them off and she agreed to return them. But, as she was folding them back up, she took a look at the manufacturer’s tag inside – which said “waist size 34”.
It was a good surprise. Keep in mind that less than 2 years ago I was wearing 38″ pants, and they were getting tight as my actual weight climbed over 245 lbs. Now, thanks to my finding and (most of the time) following the Paleo Diet, I’m under 200, putting on some muscle, and for 3 minutes I was wearing 34″ shorts.
This is getting interesting.
On another note: you know the weather has your number when the OVERNIGHT LOW for your area has a heat index number attached to it.